Secret Wish.

I never say that I do. I never say the L word because I am still not allowed. And I am not allowed to talk about these things that I think ; carrying your juices and seeds ; being with you in every possible way. Oh but if I could...
I would take your head between my hands and scream it to your face. Aloud, out loud. Perhaps I'd spit or end up biting your lip. These feelings are wrathful when piling up. These feelings are violent when bottled up. But if you let me release them, the war would be over. Passion would be peace. Wrong would be right.
Please let me be with you what I feel for you.

Crystal Ship

Tonight I watched you perform. You were singing about bliss. You were beautiful.
When I said goodbye we hugged like friends should, but my hand held on to your backside a little longer, and your kiss on the cheek was almost too close to my lips.
As the pain in my shoulder grew, the weight in my heart got heavier.
I know we try to avoid falling. I know we can't afford it. But if it keeps getting heavier, I know I won't be able to do anything but fall.